If I could write a letter to my 19 year old self.
If I could write a letter and address it to the past, then I would send it back in time to when I was 19. I was just getting started and Tarot was becoming part of my life. I set out on a journey and this is when it all started.
I would not want to make the letter too long because I know (or knew) at that age I was not going to pay attention to too much detail. I would have looked at it, read a page of the letter, and put it down on a desk somewhere. I would have thought it was silly that a letter from the future was in my hand and probably would have laughed at it. So, there would probably be 10 important items that I would address and make sure they were in bold, because the eye will go directly to the important parts and soak that shit up.
What would I say?
Well, that is a very good question.
Hmm, hmm.
Me me me me…
Okay. Ready.
It would go something like this:
Dear 19 year old Aaron,
Listen Bitch!
Now that I have your attention, let us begin.
I know you have your first Tarot deck that was given to you by a teacher named Eileen. Ya bitch I know. Believe me they will become the greatest tool in your witchy bag of tricks. Now let us move forward and get to the important stuff.
Number 1: Try Everything!
If you think that you will only stick with Tarot as your source of information, you are setting yourself up for failure. Stop being a Prude!
Bitch, I know you.
You are a huge Prude at your age and I think it will benefit you to pick up a damn pendulum, Oracle deck, and some crystals. You should start to learn them now, because when you are older, oh let’s say a handsome 38 years old, then you will find these to be an added benefit to your readings. So, stop being a prudish bitch when it comes to your spiritual tools and get your shit together now, rather than later.
Number 2: Seek out other sources of information.
Yes, your mom will burn the book that came with your most favorite deck but she does you a damn favor. She set you off on a path to seek out other sources of information. You did not have to rely on a book that would give you isolated thoughts and direction.
Stop crying over it. Stop holding a grudge. Get over it.
Your mom was no different than you at that very moment in time. She was on her own spiritual path, as you were on yours. Understand that she will be your nonjudgmental spiritual teacher later in life. She will understand you better than the teachers you find later. Believe me.
Number 3: Start working with affirmations.
Yes, think positive bitch. No bitch, don’t think only positive thoughts. Take the negative thoughts you have in your mind right now (which will probably be about how you are not with someone and need to be with someone) and change them! Think about the good in your life. Think about how worthy you are to be loved. Think about the air in your lungs, the fact that you are alive, and that you are beautiful.
Yes, you are beautiful.
Tell yourself in the mirror every day that you are exactly where you need to be. Now go and do it! I will wait.
Did you do it? Probably not, but you will eventually, and when you do, it will feel like the missing link was found. That the puzzle is now complete.
Number 4: Stop looking for love!
You probably will not listen to this advice. You will keep on looking but at least it will sit in the back of your mind. Love is there. You simply have to recognize it. The love you require is not found in any other person. It sits in the very center of your heart. The love that you find later in life for your perfect self is the greatest love of all.
Oh shit I sound like Whitney Houston!
Number 5: Do not sell or give away your Tarot books.
I know you. You will want to help others.
They will not ask for it.
They will look at you weird.
They will accept the gifts and act like Rizzo on Grease when the head cheerleader Patty comes walking up and hands her a paper for the dance. She sounds interested as she proceeds to rip it up and throw it away. Keep your books until Source decides to tell you with a very firm voice “Give it away”.
Believe me you will end up buying the same books later in life. So save yourself some money and keep them for as long as you can.
Number 6: Ask for something in return for a reading.
Bitch!
Your shit is not free!
Well, maybe in the beginning it can be free. Like the first 30 people you read for should be free but you need something in return on the 31st person. Don’t act all modest and shit. If they offer you a coffee then accept it. If they want to buy you lunch, and you are not hungry, then take that shit home in a doggie bag. Make a list of things you can always use like crystals, candles, statues, incense, or a damn good massage.
They are not paying for your gift but for your time. Believe me there have been many times when I have done a reading and the person in front of you (me) kept asking the same questions over and over but with different words or in a different language.
Bitch Phalease!
The cards know what you are asking. Stop asking the same question over and over. You are wasting my time! It took me a long time to find this out. I had to pull up my big girl pants and say “Ya, well your time is up. Unless you want to pay me for my time then we are going to have to call it a night”. They will respect you later on for it.
Number 7: Have confidence!
After the 100th person that you read, and yes you will read many more after that, you need to have confidence that what you are saying is true. Trust in Source. Let the energy flow and state what you see. Do not get confused. If you see a horse, then say it! I see a damn horse. Never hold any positive information back from the client. You will eventually build up a system of symbols and signs that the spirits will keep using.
Let the cards talk to you and let the information flow. Do not look at the person’s facial expression. If they tell you “it doesn’t make sense”, then move on. Do not try and figure it out. Remember that you are there to give them information from Source. It is not for you to take home and figure it out for them.
Number 8: Buy Crystals and hold onto them!
Yes, we may have not been the richest bitch on the block, but we did have a job, and we were able to afford small crystals. Do not worry about your teacher crystals for they make their appearance later in life.
You will find a clear generator crystal at a lovely shop called Nutmeg’s Ojai House. They will be so beautiful and powerful that the moment you see them, you will know they are yours. Buy a lot of Amethyst, Rose Quartz, and Flourite. Especially Flourite. He will be your best friend later in life. This stone will give you much needed grounding, healing, and spiritual protection. Take care of them. Love them. Talk to them. They will be your guides into other realms and also teach you how to heal.
Number 9: Touch the cards.
Put your hands on them cards when you are stumped and have a question about the person in front of you.
Soak in that information.
Allow the cards to become part of you.
You will see this technique done later in life in a reading that you have done at Journey Home by a tarot reader named “Sea Gypsy Witch”. You will go with a friend named Lori and the reading will be filled with valuable information. She touched her cards when she wanted more information.
You will also see this technique done with a dear teacher and friend named Brian Parker. You will meet him later in life in Austin, TX. Yes bitch! You will move to Austin, Texas and meet your tribe. Do not give up hope on finding your tribe. They are there, but you will find out later that your tribe is spread out. They will live in many different places and be found at many different stages of your life.
Number 10: Start to get in touch with your Spirit Guides.
Yes, you will have a set of Spirit Guides that you will work with later in life. Start to get to know at least one of them when you are young. It will boost your confidence, empower you with readings, and help you through very difficult times. You will improve your psychic powers 10 times more and at a greater speed. Meditate more and more each day with an intent to hear your spirit guides.
Ask them for help. Allow them to guide you through troubled times and bless you when things are wonderful. They will never fail you and only empower you. Listen to them as they guide you throughout your day. They will only lead you to good. Believe me.
I tried to keep it short and sweet but you probably will only do a few of the items listed. I understand. I know who you are and what you are like at 19.
No matter what. You will be okay. You will be a great teacher, healer, tarot reader, and crystal journeyman. Never stop growing and know that there is someone out there that will love you for all your quarks and imperfections. Trust me on this one.
Love and Blessings,
Aaron
I would not want to make the letter too long because I know (or knew) at that age I was not going to pay attention to too much detail. I would have looked at it, read a page of the letter, and put it down on a desk somewhere. I would have thought it was silly that a letter from the future was in my hand and probably would have laughed at it. So, there would probably be 10 important items that I would address and make sure they were in bold, because the eye will go directly to the important parts and soak that shit up.
What would I say?
Well, that is a very good question.
Hmm, hmm.
Me me me me…
Okay. Ready.
It would go something like this:
Dear 19 year old Aaron,
Listen Bitch!
Now that I have your attention, let us begin.
I know you have your first Tarot deck that was given to you by a teacher named Eileen. Ya bitch I know. Believe me they will become the greatest tool in your witchy bag of tricks. Now let us move forward and get to the important stuff.
Number 1: Try Everything!
If you think that you will only stick with Tarot as your source of information, you are setting yourself up for failure. Stop being a Prude!
Bitch, I know you.
You are a huge Prude at your age and I think it will benefit you to pick up a damn pendulum, Oracle deck, and some crystals. You should start to learn them now, because when you are older, oh let’s say a handsome 38 years old, then you will find these to be an added benefit to your readings. So, stop being a prudish bitch when it comes to your spiritual tools and get your shit together now, rather than later.
Number 2: Seek out other sources of information.
Yes, your mom will burn the book that came with your most favorite deck but she does you a damn favor. She set you off on a path to seek out other sources of information. You did not have to rely on a book that would give you isolated thoughts and direction.
Stop crying over it. Stop holding a grudge. Get over it.
Your mom was no different than you at that very moment in time. She was on her own spiritual path, as you were on yours. Understand that she will be your nonjudgmental spiritual teacher later in life. She will understand you better than the teachers you find later. Believe me.
Number 3: Start working with affirmations.
Yes, think positive bitch. No bitch, don’t think only positive thoughts. Take the negative thoughts you have in your mind right now (which will probably be about how you are not with someone and need to be with someone) and change them! Think about the good in your life. Think about how worthy you are to be loved. Think about the air in your lungs, the fact that you are alive, and that you are beautiful.
Yes, you are beautiful.
Tell yourself in the mirror every day that you are exactly where you need to be. Now go and do it! I will wait.
Did you do it? Probably not, but you will eventually, and when you do, it will feel like the missing link was found. That the puzzle is now complete.
Number 4: Stop looking for love!
You probably will not listen to this advice. You will keep on looking but at least it will sit in the back of your mind. Love is there. You simply have to recognize it. The love you require is not found in any other person. It sits in the very center of your heart. The love that you find later in life for your perfect self is the greatest love of all.
Oh shit I sound like Whitney Houston!
Number 5: Do not sell or give away your Tarot books.
I know you. You will want to help others.
They will not ask for it.
They will look at you weird.
They will accept the gifts and act like Rizzo on Grease when the head cheerleader Patty comes walking up and hands her a paper for the dance. She sounds interested as she proceeds to rip it up and throw it away. Keep your books until Source decides to tell you with a very firm voice “Give it away”.
Believe me you will end up buying the same books later in life. So save yourself some money and keep them for as long as you can.
Number 6: Ask for something in return for a reading.
Bitch!
Your shit is not free!
Well, maybe in the beginning it can be free. Like the first 30 people you read for should be free but you need something in return on the 31st person. Don’t act all modest and shit. If they offer you a coffee then accept it. If they want to buy you lunch, and you are not hungry, then take that shit home in a doggie bag. Make a list of things you can always use like crystals, candles, statues, incense, or a damn good massage.
They are not paying for your gift but for your time. Believe me there have been many times when I have done a reading and the person in front of you (me) kept asking the same questions over and over but with different words or in a different language.
Bitch Phalease!
The cards know what you are asking. Stop asking the same question over and over. You are wasting my time! It took me a long time to find this out. I had to pull up my big girl pants and say “Ya, well your time is up. Unless you want to pay me for my time then we are going to have to call it a night”. They will respect you later on for it.
Number 7: Have confidence!
After the 100th person that you read, and yes you will read many more after that, you need to have confidence that what you are saying is true. Trust in Source. Let the energy flow and state what you see. Do not get confused. If you see a horse, then say it! I see a damn horse. Never hold any positive information back from the client. You will eventually build up a system of symbols and signs that the spirits will keep using.
Let the cards talk to you and let the information flow. Do not look at the person’s facial expression. If they tell you “it doesn’t make sense”, then move on. Do not try and figure it out. Remember that you are there to give them information from Source. It is not for you to take home and figure it out for them.
Number 8: Buy Crystals and hold onto them!
Yes, we may have not been the richest bitch on the block, but we did have a job, and we were able to afford small crystals. Do not worry about your teacher crystals for they make their appearance later in life.
You will find a clear generator crystal at a lovely shop called Nutmeg’s Ojai House. They will be so beautiful and powerful that the moment you see them, you will know they are yours. Buy a lot of Amethyst, Rose Quartz, and Flourite. Especially Flourite. He will be your best friend later in life. This stone will give you much needed grounding, healing, and spiritual protection. Take care of them. Love them. Talk to them. They will be your guides into other realms and also teach you how to heal.
Number 9: Touch the cards.
Put your hands on them cards when you are stumped and have a question about the person in front of you.
Soak in that information.
Allow the cards to become part of you.
You will see this technique done later in life in a reading that you have done at Journey Home by a tarot reader named “Sea Gypsy Witch”. You will go with a friend named Lori and the reading will be filled with valuable information. She touched her cards when she wanted more information.
You will also see this technique done with a dear teacher and friend named Brian Parker. You will meet him later in life in Austin, TX. Yes bitch! You will move to Austin, Texas and meet your tribe. Do not give up hope on finding your tribe. They are there, but you will find out later that your tribe is spread out. They will live in many different places and be found at many different stages of your life.
Number 10: Start to get in touch with your Spirit Guides.
Yes, you will have a set of Spirit Guides that you will work with later in life. Start to get to know at least one of them when you are young. It will boost your confidence, empower you with readings, and help you through very difficult times. You will improve your psychic powers 10 times more and at a greater speed. Meditate more and more each day with an intent to hear your spirit guides.
Ask them for help. Allow them to guide you through troubled times and bless you when things are wonderful. They will never fail you and only empower you. Listen to them as they guide you throughout your day. They will only lead you to good. Believe me.
I tried to keep it short and sweet but you probably will only do a few of the items listed. I understand. I know who you are and what you are like at 19.
No matter what. You will be okay. You will be a great teacher, healer, tarot reader, and crystal journeyman. Never stop growing and know that there is someone out there that will love you for all your quarks and imperfections. Trust me on this one.
Love and Blessings,
Aaron
