As I pull the cards out of the cloth they are kept in, I reflect on my past.
Actions taken with no thought or reason.
I jumped into the great unknown and landed on my two feet.
I think you will find yourself landing on your own two feet very soon.
We never truly heal from the pain of loss and expansion.
Our bones ache.
We are tired.
We ask Spirit for peace and understanding.
We ask Spirit to know.
Why must people enter into our life, demolish what we have created, and leave?
To break every piece of love within our heart.
To cause us to cry.
Why does loss happen?
Why do we die?
I write to you with some advice.
When all of the pain and sorrow has left our body, we begin to heal, but we truly never find wholeness again within the memories of the past.
We are forever changed and our spirit evolves, becoming brighter than before.
We level up.
The healing is still taking place as memories jump into our mind.
We begin to evaluate our words and actions.
Why did I say that?
Why did I not do this instead?
We start to make changes in the memory, hoping that the outcome will not be the same, but we find that it plays out exactly as we remember it.
The healing is still taking place on the wound that was placed on our spiritual heart.
Like the card Temperance, we begin to find that through creativity, we become whole again.
Time marches forward and we forget.
Years pass and we do not recall the memory as much.
Until one day it creeps up on us.
It pounces and scratches at our thoughts.
We begin to remember and the scar now becomes a fresh wound.
We are stronger though.
We are wise.
We take what is left behind and love the fucking shit out of it, for we know it is just the past trying to keep us from being whole.
As you can see the healing never really ends.
It lingers because Spirit knows that we will be faced with different circumstances, but with the same outcome as the past.
We must heal again but in a different place and time.
This allows us to process the feelings at a faster rate.
We leave it behind us.
It gets easier to speak about the pain and sorrow with others and as connections are made on a spiritual level, we start to let it go.
With all my love,