There are moments we will find our self, stuck in a cycle.
As if we are doing things out of the greater good of love, and we find our spirit in shambles.
We look to the South for inspiration.
An opportunity of some sort, that will carry us to the finish line, unscathed and intact.
We wish for something more to happen.
A ray of hope that shines down on us to reveal the secret truth.
Sometimes we have to just throw our hands up in the air and say “fuck it”.
Get rid of it all.
Get rid of old things that do not serve us.
Throw those tiny figurines away that are broken and damaged.
Hit the reset button.
When we find our self in a cycle of shadow, we move through things with no passion or heart involved. We do things to satisfy our yearning of commitment.
We repeat things to try to understand, but sometimes we hold on to them even after the lesson is learned.
When I was younger, I would hold on to every action and reaction created by someone’s own disbelief of self worth.
I would try to make truth out of a disagreement.
I would try to correct the wrong that was done, even if it did not happen because of my own actions.
The hurt and pain would swim at the surface of my spiritual journey, calling out for help, flailing arms to get my attention, and the Ego would listen.
It would state to me that the memory needed to be saved, when really it did not.
I had to learn to let go of things that were familiar.
That is why the Devil card kept coming up in my readings when I first started my spiritual journey.
I had to deal with the Ego part of my life.
The one that tells us we are not worthy of good.
Sometimes we must leave familiar things behind, to understand what they really mean within our life.
To analyze the very essence of what they represented.
Sometimes we must leave and just say forget all of it, so that we can appreciate what we really had in the first place.
Sometimes we must leave home several times, so that we can understand where home really is.
It is okay.
Spirit leaves the porch light on, so that when we do return, we feel accepted.
We feel worthy.
Spirit understands that things must be broken down.
Like The Tower card, we must break elements of our environment down to a simple form.
To return to the beginning.
To find our true self within the dirt and rubble.
To learn about rebuilding with a solid foundation.
With all my love,