Last week was about being kind to my body. Listening to the unknown about where I am (with my weight) and where I am going.
Did the DVD's arrive at my house?
Why, yes they did. As seen in the cards, it arrived on Monday. The work out is going very well. I love it!
I get to dance again. I get to express myself once more, with my body, to some great music. Now, I am not back in my college days dancing a full routine with jumps and falls. Hell-to-the-no!
I am not that in shape. Granted I do miss coming up with my own choreography to some great music from Tori Amos.
I am listening to her as I type this post out. Her music always speaks to me during my times of working through my shit. Haha.
This diet and weight issue can be a struggle at times. I was once skinny. Well, skinny in my eyes. I was once happy with my body and my weight. I was dedicated.
Now, I am simply trying to stay in decent shape and also get everything else in my life in order.
To provide energy and time to two other people can stretch you thin. You start to tell yourself, when it calls out to you for some "me time", that you simply are too busy. Maybe tomorrow.
Yes, maybe tomorrow. Which leads me to the reading. What do the cards have to say about my diet and exercise plan? This damn weight issue?
Let us find out.
I think so.
I feel it is time to step things up. Follow a plan that allows me to have protein but more vegetables. Fruit is not always high on my list. I can usually satisfy my sweet tooth with an apple.
Uriel is the Archangel of innovative thoughts and actions. Well it is time to come up with a new plan of action that will benefit me in the end.
Am I really taking all of this seriously?
Of course, but remember last week, the Queen of Swords energy started to creep in. I am to take on that energy and say:
"Listen puta. You have to stop playing around and get serious. You want change? Then make it happen!"
Aye Dios Mio!
Now I see that a change is taking place for the better. That change has to be powerful in nature. It can be small in action but powerful.
It is the week of Thanksgiving Holiday. I am hosting this year and all that wonderful food will be right in front of my face. It is time for some Willpower. A little bit of self restrain. Come on Aaron. Get with it!
Oh gosh! I am such a hard ass! Lol!
Back to the reading....
The cards below are always the details of how to achieve the top card as a goal.
I see that there is a victory later in the week. I promised myself that I would get serious the day after Thanksgiving.
I believe I can do it.
See the Knight of Cups? This is action within the realm of the heart. Emotions will surface but if I am ready and willing to move past my past actions then I will move smoothly through them.
I have learned that past relationships, and those who I have loved, mixed in with the things I regret, bubble up to the surface. I begin to doubt the very special and beautiful person I truly am.
This leads me to the Four of Coins. The Miser. He who holds onto the energy. He who holds onto the truth. Sometimes being closed off is a good thing. Sometimes being closed off is a bad thing. We have to look at the nature of why we are closed off. This card is telling me that I may have to close myself off for a while and really think about where I am spending my time and energy.
I have been living it up on the weekends after eating so good and healthy during the week. My choices are causing me to gain weight. To say it is okay to have just a few small items here and there.
Those small items lead into bigger items and then I find myself in a corner holding onto a package of Oreo Cookies like a gosh darn crack whore.
Oh it is not a pretty site.
The overall message of the cards is simply "let go". This week will have to do with letting things go. Let go of the torment of looking in the mirror and stating just how fat I am. To tell myself it is time to go on a diet. To tell myself I am not worthy.
It is time to state "Yes I am worthy". I am worthy of making great choices that will lead to other great choices.
To tell myself just how beautiful and wonderful I am.
Sometimes we forget that about our self. We forget how truly spectacular we are.
Maybe it is time to turn over a new leaf?
I believe it is.
How are your diet and exercise plans going? How far have you come along with your goal? Also the Shaun T new exercise program "Cize" is actually really fun and easy.
Till next time.